Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Venetian Dream (2012)

I'm trying to remember who I really am, but all I all know is that this world is not my world. It's like I don't belong here.

People are trying to tell me it's the feeling only people without purpose get, but I'm just getting more sure there's something wrong with the world not me.

And yet I don't feel confident about that.
Since I don't have anyone to talk to my world is just getting smaller and smaller, or maybe it's too big and I'm getting lost in it.

It's like when I was a kid and thought there's something big waiting for me. Like there's this great chance that's meant to wait for this guy who's gonna grow up one day. Who's gonna be something important, not just a random guy, a nobody, guy with a wife, who after years never ever looks at her as he promised her when they were still in love.
Maybe I wanted to be something, but really all this time I just wanted to find someone who'd take me as I am. If only I had that someone I'd live with a purpose. Now I don't have it.

And all this time I'm getting used to being alone.

People said I’ve changed so much. Well, here’s the truth. I grew up.
I stopped letting people push me around all the time. I learned that you can’t always be happy. I accepted reality. The point’s not to live the easiest life. It’s to build up the strenght to endure the strife.
Yet I know all that would be impossible without you.
This kid inside of me still is there, but he won't cry anymore for not knowing what to do in life.
What people don’t realize is that it’s simple, but it isn’t easy.

What hurts me now is that all this is just your dream. It didn't happen. No, not yet. There's  a plan for everyone, maybe you just have to wait a little.  But what keeps you ready is the expectation that big things happen. And maybe the next big thing is just around the corner.
Just remember ...

Tonight, you dream. Tomorrow, we'll do.

1 comment:

AnJa. . . said...

..tu, kjer si sedaj, je namen zate v tem trenutku..da boš nekega dne, ko boš pripravljen na naslednji korak, le-tega sposoben sprejeti v vsej polnosti :)